Thursday, 21 January 2010

Mulu raw,social workers,pulling of hair

Well what a few days I have had! I have been looking at lots of lovely blogs that are giving me so much inspiration about trying out new recipes, and trying to eat more healthily and most of all experimenting I guess with food but I hasten to add TOFU it still is sitting in the freezer waiting for me to pluck up the courage to cook it!!!!
I have lots of pictures and have just seen the "add image" icon duh I am so computer slow but also have no idea where the lead is so please be patient-thank you!!I then felt perhaps I should call this something different but Angels are here they are my life they are my family,I didn't know weather to talk about our adoption road but will add updates!
Mulu raw chocolate, wow Mr postie delivered Mr little package today,I opened it without the eagle eyes of my smallest angel as I don't think she would really appreciate it! I ordered the silk and dark,the silk smelt like dark but certainly was so silky and the best non dairy I have ever experienced also the dark was rich and just delicious thank you D.J at I just couldn't resist ordering some:) a treat that will be hidden away in the depths of the pantry:)
Social Workers what can I say you get told something from senior ones and then something else totally different from another!!!We have now been told it will take 5 mths for our little angel to be ours not 1-2 months like we were told!I know 5 months doesn't seem long but she has lived with us for 21 months as a foster child and has been let down by the pen pushers she deserves quicker than 5 months!! She is pushing all boundaries at the moment and has gone back to pulling children' s hair she had stopped it for about 6 months but have had 3 episodes at toddler groups this week,it really upset me on Tuesday and I felt I have let her down somehow!! She just laughs at me when I explain her behaviour is unkind and hurts,it is certainly not learnt behaviour!!
Something totally different now my eldest daughter nearly 16 has a boyfriend,and we plan to go to Wales in Feb to meet him and his family,he does sound lovely,but I fear her education is dipping slightly!!!

Friday, 15 January 2010

Tea pot,fingers and in need of bigger pantry!!!!

Last night we had a bit of a panic well I did and little angel!!! She had managed to get her finger stuck in the plug hole while I was draining water out!!!Sheer panic felled over me and her(why can I not ever keep calm when things happen to my own?) After screaming for Mr Angel for help I managed to loosen it out,phew what a night,I sat and cried and angel kept looking at her poorly finger!!!I will NEVER empty the bath while she is in it again!!!!!
Before all the little episode we had been to TKMAX and I got myself..... a Teapot :) I've been wanting one for ages ever since I bought a fab vintage tea cosy from Mrs Thrifty which shshsh was a gift to my eldest angel who loves a good cup of Earl Grey!!!! It is pale pink with cream stripes!!!I also bought a cornish ware type large milk jug you know the blue n cream stripes,pics to follow!!!!!So pleased even though Mr Angel just raised his eyebrows as if to say "where will you put them?"
Bigger pantry is needed or someone to come in and organise my new buys!!!!I went to Holland and Barrett too and bought a few things but wished I had someone in the know to guide me.DJ you sprang to mind but Scotland is a bit far from the midlands eh!!!! I bought Flax seeds,sesame seeds,tvp chunks,bananna chips only to find they were the wrong type that angel M wanted!!!TOFU beechsmoked;) a tube of mexican tofu paste and linseeds!!! Asked if they had raw chocolate and she looked blank!!!! Oh also got barley cup,yummy!!!!and soya cream! I want to eat better than we have been of late and Mr Angel let me look through his cycling magazine and it did say he should be eating 10 rainbow veg a day and or fruit so I think smoothies springs to mind also milk which he hates but disguised in smoothie fab so i would like a blender Asda HAVE A £19 phillips one!!!!!
Approved box came today omg where will I put it all,so pleased except they didn't have tvp mince and put in extras like scholl cushion thing's in but heh it's fab,thanks DJ!!!I am now not worried if we get snowed under,we have enough soup mix to last years!!!!!and nut roast mix thought my eldest could add different things to those packets and experiment!!!!
At 2 we have the assessor coming round(no I'm not baking) he will I hope gives us a glowing assessment and we will fly through panel!After 2 years our little angel will be ours!!!!Right off to struggle through the sludge now ew it is worse than the snow as it is raining too,oh the joys of British weather,x

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

1 out of 5 turned up!!!!!

It was a meeting to lets us say perhaps not needed to be documented!!!!One out of potential 5 people turned up and I had even baked some blueberry muffins(which still didn't really taste that good) and lemon drizzle cake!!! That among many other things is most annoying about my work is meetings being a waste of time just a formality!!!
We shall see what Friday brings yet another meeting and this meeting does matter!! Our little cupcake came into our lives 21mths ago and changed our home for the better but it has been a huge roller coaster, a learning curve and at times I wanted to give up!Roll on the panel that's what I say!
I have been looking at many lovely blogs and have been inspired to start cooking,but for some reason when I follow a recipe it never quite turns out the same:) sometimes I feel like that programme from years ago "Butterflies",well I can but try!!!Adds a bit more conversation around the dinner table!When I have learnt how to put pics on there may even be evidence of my failures!!

Saturday, 9 January 2010

new arrival of yet another sibling!!!!

Well here goes,was given the news of our little cupcake's birth mum's new addition,I tried not asking too many details as I know the s.w's have already pin pointed us as potential adopters for baby L.It puts us in a terrible situation really as where will it all end?Will birth mum continue to have more and more children and have them all taken away at birth or will she stop? Going on what many of these families and the ones we have either cared for their children etc they don't or can't stop!!!!Very sad for the children and very confusing!!!! We have talked about this new arrival and because of some very challenging behaviour issues from our little monkey we feel it would not be fair on either her,our youngest or us really is that bad of us,I'm not sure!!!!! We have been given the dreaded s.w I did not want to finish our old assessment paperwork all he has to do (she says) is make it more adoptive rather than foster friendly!!!!! mmmm the way he portrayed himself on the phone I am worried,as also he did not get friends of ours through panel and they were adopting 2nd time round!!!! We shall see!!!! Cupcake is now in a bed and believe me if you knew her you too would want to of prolonged that even till alot later in her development but after throwing herself out of the cot over Christmas and a text to s.w to explain her injuries we had no choice.But to my amazement she is being very grown up apart from sometimes waking for a few hours during the night rearranging her room!!!!! She is very head strong and pushes all boundaries all of the time but we wouldn't change that for the world.I looked at her tonight with her arms wrapped round her daddy and I had rears down my face she is the most precious cupcake ever!!! xx